Well today was an interesting day..I would like to say I got lots of quilting done..but I didn’t actually. I actually left the house today..which was unusual…lately. Lol. But I still wore sweats.
Clarissa had ballet today and we had to pay for the costume for the spring performance..50$ …I thought I was going to choke…but we did get to see the costume and it is really pretty…I guess that the part of me that will make exceptions….I don’t pay 50$ for anything else we wear.
I had some blessed phone calls and conversations today. I just love how God brings people into my life at just the right time….to say just the right things. I love that my family and I are prayed for regularly by people all over the world….. That God lays on their hearts when I am struggling. It just offers so much comfort for me. Why…..because if someone were to call and ask if I was Ok…I would say yes…probably..because in the grand scheme of things I am OK….However…when I know someone can see right through my hollow voice..or words..well I guess I have to be honest right?
So much struggle today. But I have peace. I don’t have anxiety or doubt. That makes me feel good. I am studying what I need to study. But in just a short couple of weeks it looks as if my kids no longer have a youth group …and that we are looking for a new church home. I love all of the people…I love all of the lessons I have learned. I can respectfully agree to disagree…and leave without regrets. I feel I was lead to honky-tonk church for a reason and a season…but now I am to go elsewhere. I feel I can be put in controversial situations and come out with my faith in tact……but MY children ..well God gave them to me and trusts me with them. I feel I have to keep them at the forefront of my mind. They are my ministry.
So we all had a family meeting tonight to discuss everything. You know..I just LOVE my kids! They are so insightful and they just know everything. It goes back to K.I.S.S. Keep It Simple Silly. ( Thanks Mellie). They were so good about the conversation, they were not upset…in fact they were looking forward to change. WOW! I think I could learn something from them. The whole conversation was really confirmation for me. Really our relationship with God is simple. We need to keep it simple. I don’t want muddy waters. As my favorite pastor said…..Jesus lives in us. Since Jesus lives in us we are equipped with everything we need. We don’t need anything else. I get it. It’s pretty simple. My kids get it. I need to keep simplicity on the forefront of my mind. Love God, Honor God…love his people.
So I guess you all will get to hear of our new experiences. Change…I keep having to go through change…I better get used to this at some point right? Change is so difficult. Tomorrow needs to be a WORK day….I am getting so off track.
So the other thing on my mind is my health. I am sleeping now. YAY! That has been something that has been years in the making. I haven’t slept since 1996. now I sleep. 8 hours sometimes. Now I just need to start eating right. I need to exercise ….UGH! I just can’t even think about it. Honestly I want too..sometimes I feel the motivation….but I hold myself back. I don’t know what the breakdown in communication is for me. I am feeling better emotionally than I ever have..which is in my favor.
I am sleeping..that’s in my favor. I also logically tell myself…I will actually have more energy if I just do what I am supposed to do..right?
So it’s a goal ..not a resolution to take baby steps to make myself create better habits and be healthier. There I said it. I thought about taking a picture of myself in a bikini …NOT sharing it here ( of course…cause I want you all to read and look at pictures) ….but I think If I do that I will be harder on myself. So I just need to quit taking drastic measures and failing..and I need to move slower and build small habits that form life long health. So if any of you would like to share some things that help you..please share I am open to ideas.
So good bye for now..I will see ya tomorrow.