Today marks 10 months since I started my Weight loss journey.
For those of you who don’t know I started a pre-op diet May 10th 2015. I had a gastric sleeve surgery June 10. 2015 ….so this is the journey.
I started at 275 pounds.
I now weigh 171. Yes. That is 104 pounds of weight loss!! However , for those of you following you know that I have not lost very much weight in the last month. 🙁
I started out in a size 22 jeans. I now wear a size 12. Hoping I can get into a size 10….by the next update….maybe that won’t happen?
I could beat myself up. There is no excuse for my lack of loss other than bad habits that crept in. I still find victory in the fact that I have not gained weight. I have maintained..pretty much. 2 pounds is 2 pounds, I guess.
So I cannot go into details…but I have had some major things happen this month that have my routine shook up. They have kept me from eating at home most days this month and truth be known the numbing behaviors of eating crap have surfaced. I was doing so well, for so long and this month I have been thrown for a loop. I don’t handle certain things very well…..and well….all I can say is that I have really felt sluggish, tired, depressed ect being on this diet plan. So a few days ago I started a cleanse and I am getting back on track. I am convinced that the only reason I have not gained any weight is because I am still working out and maintaining that part. Not as well as I was..because again…I am not in my normal routine.
I know we all have set backs…and I know we all need to live life and curve balls will happen. But I fear what will happen to my mental health if the scale actually goes up on me. I am so scared of how I will beat myself up for that …that I am not going to let that happen. So here’s to a growth lesson…in life and not on the scale this month. I am also pushing school off for a quarter until this situation, I am currently dealing with subsides.
I do still have some victories.
I made mashed cauliflower for my family and didn’t tell them it wasn’t mashed potatoes……they never knew the difference.
Trust me! that is a victory.
There have been several low carb recipes that I have tried and they have liked them.
Also in December, after my first race, Carl, my son was inspired to start running. He is not a sports guy ….and running seems to come easy to him. So I was really happy that he could find something to get him in better shape.
Well this week Rob also started Couch To 5K (C25K). I am very excited about that because Rob needs to get in shape. He is only a bit over weight….which doesn’t bother me in the least. But Rob has a ton of health issues. I really think if he gets in shape and starts eating better he will feel better. So we shall see how this all works out. I know he likes bike riding….so I suspect we will get new bikes this year and start riding bikes again as well. So I am an agent of change in this house. We are eating better and working out more. I feel good about that.
I have been spending a lot of time out of town in the big city and have some free time sometimes. So I did go to Victoria’s Secret to be fitted and sized.
I will have to say that in all actuality I have never been sized & fitted because I just bought & wore the cheapest bras that I could find and that fit halfway decent. There are some things that I have neglected with myself and that is one of them. I figured that since I don’t have any nice fitting bras (I only have sports bras) that I would go get fitted. It was a good experience. The gal helped me and I tried all all sorts of bras to find the shape, fit and comfort that felt good to me. I have gone down 2 cup sizes and several inches. So it was time. Even if I lose the last 25 pounds, that I am aiming to lose, I think I can easily adjust and figure things out. But as all of us,ladies know…a well fitting bra is a life saver. I want a bra that I can’t feel and holds the girls up to where they are supposed to be 🙂
I think every woman should have a proper fitting.
So that is the best I have for this month. I promise you…but mostly to myself that I will be in the 160’s on the 10 of next month. It’s my goal.
I hope you all have a great day and that you start claiming your health. It’s worth it!
Blessings to all of you,