Sad to say……

I won’t be going to market.

After all this planning…my trip is paid for….and I am in the home stretch of leaving. I am packed, Meals are made for my family, lunches packed. Errands are run.I spoke with my Grandma. She actually has to have a stint put in her heart.The surgeon says it’s far to blocked to wait until next week {when I can be home} She could have a heart attack at any time. For normal people this may be a normal procedure. It’s iffy with my grandma…she doesn’t have the best health…she has gone in several times for a “normal” procedure and been in a life or death situation…having a 2 month stay. My aunt K has always been the one to take care of her…well She just got married and moved to Florida. So now my grandma is alone and scared…I am two hours away…and closer than Florida.

So I cancelled my flight…..I am making arrangements for everyone. I will be driving to Spokane tomorrow so I can take her in for Surgery and have peace of mind that all will be ok.

I have to say I have been going back and fourth….trying to decide if I am being selfish….{If I were to go on a trip}. WWJD? What if I were older, by myself and scared. I have Jesus so I wouldn’t ever truly be alone…and my grandma doesn’t. SO I need to step in for Jesus and be the light. It’s crazy talk to some but I felt like after I prayedI got this feeling of…I am doing his work and he will take care of me”. I had immediate relief. He has met my financialneeds and everything in between.

So as upset as I am that I can’t go on this trip…I know that greater things are on the horizon…and I am doing what I amsupposed to…even though a part of me wants to be selfish.I am only human afterall. I can’t give into myselfish desires…when I am keeping my eyes on Jesus.

So if you could all just pray for my Grandma that would be appreciated. I have not carved out five days for anyone recently… God carved out 5 daysin my schedule for a reason.

 

5 thoughts on “Sad to say……

  1. You are following the right path as hard as it is for you to give up market, God will continue to bless you. Much love, Marilyn I am just a text away girlfriend:)
    Praying.

  2. Prayers are with your Grandmother and you during this time. There will be other markets, this is your only Grandma, she needs you during this time.

  3. You have made the right choice….and there will be other markets….I will be thinking of you and your grandma….

  4. Grandmas are more important. 🙂 My dad had 6 stints in and is not healthy. Your Grandma will be fine. You are a blessing to her and to us. Prayers for your Grandma and you! Please text me if you need to. I am always here for you!
    Love and blessings
    Amy

  5. Prayers for you and your grandma.Having a grandma when you are an adult is very very special, you are making the best decision for you.

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