Well today my cleaning lady Angie came over. I hate calling her my “cleaning lady”…Cause she is actually my friend and Sister in Christ. We talk about God every time she comes and we share..I feel bad because she always knocks paid time off her hours because of us talking…so I am paying her anyway.
She is such a beautiful woman…and recently saved….It is a lovely experience to watch.
I quilted today…of course.
I also went to Tuesday night Bible study…it’s a group study for anyone…and Rob went.
We studied Mathew 4:5 through 5-12.
It was a good study and I felt like I had many scriptures in my mind..which makes me feel good because I know I am retaining some information I need.
So A special Scripture for the day:
He ( or her) who refreshes others will himself (or herself) be refreshed.
I thought that was fitting because this weeks proverbs are 7-9 ( so this is for next weeks…we get a head start)
So I say refresh a friend, neighbor or co-worker..it will do a body good! Have a good night!
Well I am reading this book…it’s one of those books i have been looking at for a couple years….waiting. Waiting for school to end, waiting for time to stand still so I could have time to read an enjoyable book. A book that is just because “I want too” kind of a book.
Currently, I have four books on my night stand I read from them everyday.
My Bible ( of course)
Don’t sweat the small stuff ( I am pretty sure I read this before..but I think everyone should own this book and just continually read it)
Making peace with your past (which is written from a Christian perspective)
Live is a verb by Patti Digh. I looked up her blog yesterday ( it’s on my sidebar)
I love this book cause it’s kind of like having homework. remember I am a “star chart kid” The type that likes assignments, homework and seeing progress….I know it’s a bad/good thing. LOL
Anyway, I read this every night and I read the assignment but I haven’t been doing them. I am kind of burned out on homework at the moment but I get why they are worthy…so Im thinking after I read through it I will go through it again and pick assignments that I think will stretch me. But in all honesty you don’t have to do the assignments to find the bits of wisdom in the pages. There are wonderful quotes and stories ..it’s really like reading a blog…which I know i love to do.
Anyway one of the tasks is to “Wear Pink Glasses”…she tells a lovely story of a very intelligent woman who had been through so much in her life ( I don’t want to give it away)…The author was on a trip with this woman I imagine soaking up so much from her on their trip. They happened to spend some time shopping and the older woman needed some reading glasses. The manly, thick, black glasses that she usually wore were broken and she needed a new pair of those dime store glasses. When the younger woman urged her to try on the bright pink glasses …she smiled and took them off as if she couldn’t really be taken seriously wearing those glasses. In the end the younger women bought them later and sent them to her with a letter. Moral of the story “Always wear the PINK glasses”
What keeps us from doing things we love..or that makes us feel good?
I am Christian Woman and what I hear from other condemning Christians is that we have to act a certain way, we have to love a certain way….we have to do this or do that? Even within my own small town a pastor was receiving trouble because his teen age daughters had streaked their hair?? What is that business?? How many men and women dye their hair? my own Pastor had a poor dye job this last summer he joked about it in front of the congregation. I am thankful my church isn’t like that at all…It’s a come as you are church..purple hair, green skin..who cares? We love ya!
I happen to love glitter…I wear glitter make up….I wear flowers in my hair..gaudy jewelry and bright scarves..I LOVE PINK everything. I always have. I even wrote a blog entry years ago about how I hate glitter haters…LOL ( that was for you Courtney!) (P.S. I don’t really hate glitter haters..I just don’t understand how anyone could hate glitter…so I will just love you all until you are converted..what’s holding you back?? Talk to me!). But you know it wasn’t until a few years ago (circa 2000’s) that I would even consider wearing such bright, gaudy things..all my jewelry was simple ( it had to be real..so I could only afford simple..LOL)…I wouldn’t have worn fancy hats or flowers in my hair because I wouldn’t allow myself to express myself in that manner….There was even a time in my life I wouldn’t swim ..because I felt I was to fat to wear a swim suit. I weigh more than I have ever weighed in my whole life..but I will put on a suit and go down a water slide…why? Because I decided a little chub isn’t going to stop me from living life, spending time with my family or having fun. That’s me fat and all! Wearing the glitter, the fancy scarves and the flowers in my hair…Well they just make me happy, I feel feminine, and pretty. I have visions of myself in the nursing home…with my faux fur scarves (That I probably knitted) and my feather boa…gaudy shell purse and rhinestones earrings…the glitter embedded in the fold of my eyelids… frosty pink lipstick..and a quilted bag on my walker! I will probably be hideous…but GUESS WHAT???!! I won’t care! I will be happy, I will have a smile on my face dentures or not and I will be happy with what I have, who I love and whatever my purpose for the time will be. So not only should I wear the PINK glasses..I should wear them while i can still see…I should continue to be me ..who cares if glitter is out of style..right??
So now that you have all read this …when I do get to that stage you will all know that I shouldn’t be committed if I do happen to start wearing a feather boa….it’s actually what I strove to accomplish on a daily basis..LOL
Tonight was bible study night. Great night, lots of learning. I did read my proverbs this week 4-6. It was a lot of talk about adultery….what I didn’t realize was how many people have been affected by this. I am truly sorry for this. Whatever side you have been on..it seems many of us have…..My heart aches for you if you are going through that type of pain now. I will pray for you.
Tomorrow is a work day…LOL I am getting a lot of work done..and I see there is a light ..I keep saying that..I honestly think within a few weeks I will be writing on this very blog that I am caught up….Raise you hand if you think it’s possible???? Anyone, anyone..Beuller? Since February I have been whining about being behind..could it be happening? YES!! I am hoping I can go into the new year with a fresh slate. Blessings to all of you!
So I want to leave you with some quotes that I got from the book “life is a verb”
“When you take charge of your life, there is no longer need to ask permission of other people or society at large. When you ask permission, you give someone veto power over your life” Albert F. Geoffrey
I Love this next one because it’s so true!
When you possess light within, You see it externally. Anais Nin
Thank you Jesus! He is my LIGHT! I love that he lives inside me so I can recognize his light everywhere else!
well today’s sermon was really good. My favorite pastor preached (but said he wouldn’t be there next week..darn!) He spoke about loving like Jesus Loves. Forgiving like Jesus Forgives.
He talked about “Cold Love”
Cold Love is love with boundaries, Fake Love….Fake it til ya make it kind of love…..Any love that is not true love.
He explained that a “Real” love on earth example is marriage. After we see the true person, all their dirty laundry and we love them despite their short comings kind of love. I have been divorced ..so I realize the short comings of marriage love.
That’s how God loves us right? He knows us inside and out and he loves us despite ourselves….and how we feel about ourselves…how we use our freewill for good or bad.
Part of true love is learning how to forgive people around us. The kind of forgiveness that means forgiving someone even if they don’t deserve it. If the other person can’t meet you halfway….you make the whole trip.
We are trying to be more like Jesus…not trying to be a better version of ourselves. God made us in his image..this means we need to be more like him.
We can’t hang on to things (hurts, anger, ect). Then we could become bitter. Bitterness eats at us and makes us want revenge..even if we don’t act on it. We want that other person to feel pain……if we truly forgive we just love that person. Loving someone doesn’t mean you have to be a part of their lives and have a one on one relationship…you can love someone from afar.
He talked to us as a church body. He asked people who have issues with our neighbors or fellow church members to work those out. We need to be united. The bible says that you can’t LOVE God and hate his people. It isn’t possible…he lives in us right?
So I noticed a few people get up and go to the kitchen area ( a few women in particular who are always bickering with each other) and they came out holding hands and drying their tears. Pretty moving. God was working on some people. I wasn’t inspecting everyone…I just happened to notice them because one was sitting next to me.
I feel like I am a forgiving person….I try to love people…what I need to do is not let my emotions take over in the initial heat of the moment, especially when I am being attacked. This last couple of weeks something happened….I didn’t act on anything..but it was difficult to go through. I realized today as I was being prayed over that all though I had pieces …I missed one..and my pastor pointed it out to me. It felt great and I have let it go. I don’t have control over anything in my life and my life is in good hands.
I also asked my pastor a question after the service…..
In the summer, he gave a sermon about forgiveness. He said that if we truly forgive someone it won’t affect us anymore…whatever they did. But it bothered me because I thought
“Well if I have forgiven my mom….than why does it bother me that I won’t ever have the childhood that I should have? or the relationship?”
So I asked God to help me figure it out.
I feel like I have been blessed in so many ways since not having my mother in my life. It’s a hard thing to say for someone with a normal mom right?
Well anyway in the last couple of months i feel even more blessed in the area of having that void filled in my heart. God has brought so many wonderful women into my life that have spiritually adopted me. There are a few so close to my heart and one that really said she would adopt me.. came to me today at church and called me her Mom. She told everyone around us that I was her adopted daughter. Honestly, my heart leaped bounds because she is such a kind woman and I know she did that because she honestly loves me. She is one of many in my life both virtual and in my physical life. That have helped me realize I am a daughter of the King. He entrusted me to someone who fell short…But that’s ok..because He never does! God created me..he didn’t give me up..he has been with me the whole time
I had wrote a few months ago that I sometimes feel a tinge anytime I see a Mother & Daughter out shopping or having lunch…because I feel that I won’t ever have that. I recognized when I had that tinge the last time ..that I needed to let that go. Of course I analyzed that to myself to see if it was because I hadn’t forgiven her…or just because I am still hurt by my life.I noticed that it wasn’t just a longing…I reverted back to “Little Charisma” who always wanted to be rescued ..or felt like she was adopted..or wanted to be adopted into another family. Now that I have been adopted into a family of women who genuinely care for me ..not because they have to…but because they are called to and they want to..well that feels so much better than what I would have imagined. Ephesians 1:5 He predestined us to be “adopted” as his son(&daughters) through Jesus Christ in accordance to his pleasure and will…..
How beautiful is that??!!
I think it’s ok to admit that I was hurt. I think…. it’s not OK to let it define me or ruin my life or be at the forefront of all my decisions. Up until today, I think that ( Or I thought that) if I admitted that I was hurt, I felt like I was “living” in the past..because we cant live in the past. I thought if I had admitted I had a bad childhood that I somehow hadn’t forgiven.Not true..those are lies. It seems with each step I get closer to healing there is always something trying to hold me back. My pastor pointed out today… just that. I have to push those things away and not let them get in the way. So yes..I have forgiven…I am on the path to healing.
Here is a quote about forgiveness that I thought I would share….it completely displays how I view see it now
“Forgiveness does not change the past, but it does enlarge the future.” -Paul Boese
I think it’s ok to recognize so I can move on and make better choices.I also recognize that God is moving mountains in my life…if I love other people….people will love me..in the most unexpected ways. God’s ways are always better than my own. I can’t love because I am hoping for that in return…I already have it. I have to love like him because that is what I am called to do.
So no faking…..I just need to keep my emotions in check when someone is attacking me…I need to actually love them more. I rarely act on them so the other person doesn’t know…but in my mind I act them out…LOL. I really want to get to the point of skipping that step all together….I do think it’s possible.
I love this quote by Mother Teresa
“We cannot do great things on this earth. We can only do small things with great love”
How true is that?…even when things seem so huge to us..they are so small to God. He is LOVE and we can only do great things with him. SO I will leave you all with that today.
You got a sermon and my thought process. Please feel free to let me know if I am missing something…elaborate on something more…or simply to say I get it..I understand. Love ya!
Conniebury sent me this quilt for LAQ. She wanted an all over type design in the center and a different border design.
This line of fabric is so cute..it’s called lollipop trees by Moda.
so I thought these flowers would be perfect for this quilt ..they kind of mimic the flowers in the fabrics. ( I got the design from Brianna)….CUTE>CUTE>CUTE!